I went speechless

Damn...as I arrived at the training center..plus felt so DBA at that time...sweating..but yet excited...someone reached me..saying...- 'I'm so sorry..but your name is not in the list..you are not being registered'...WHAT??????

waited for nearly 45 minutes...sweating...tensed...I just went speechlessss...yup there we go again...my excitement flushed into the toilet!....

called the HR manager..and he said..the company is pulling back the budget for the oracle training..and they are planning to send me for the .NET certification...oh god..oh dear...not again..my body shivered..this happened last year..and its happening again...

started googling...i kept on thinking...and searching...don't we have good market for oracle here in Malaysia?...OR...am i wanting it so much...that makes it real hard to get?

Today Will Be IT!

...today will be my first day of attending the Oracle 11g administration class..Mind setting of the day: I AM A SPONGE....Talked to some experts on this matter...no matter how many courses we attend...the experiences and the skills are so needed in this field rather than a piece of paper..

Okay..got if chief!

I'm so not rational at the moment....

...Frustated..iyup..i'm all that..

just came out from the boss' room talking 'bout future plan...bla bla...and usually i just snap out from all the topics...but everytime he says 'bout his plan..the only plan that i ever put my eyeballs in will be this database section plan - ORACLE...

meetings over meetings..he'll say..'yes..i need 1 or 2 people in this'...usually there'll be 2 names crafted in my head...and definitely so far i think one out of those 2 names will be 'ME'...

i just can't stand waiting and hoping that it is me whom clutching that OCA or OCP cert...therefore in a relax manner I asked him..who does he want to send for the oracle certification..wohooo!!..I AM NOT HIS FAVOR'..I told him - I've spent my 2 years focusing in 'ONLY' oracle programming..and i really want to move into this path..he just nodded and said, 'oo i need to discuss this with the others'..PLUS..'MR M writes good stored proc'...my prompt answer: 'oo..en K tak tengok saya punye lagi(oo you haven't seen mine yet)'...

..come to think about it...i just feel like my artwork has not being appreciated..i thank you Rohaizal for giving me the opportunity for those oracle training...I don't blame Mr M for being recognized by the boss..maybe he really is good..but If..just If there's someone here to sell my name for that seat...I might be seen...

well..my dreams are not shreadded yet..Backup plan - of course spending my very own kaching...but..I must earn more than what i got today...How? Leaving is one of the options......